Tuesday, May 30, 2006

On Being Type A

So I admit I'm a little (shut up KM) Type A and a bit (shut up) of a control freak. I'm the oldest child, I like things to go my way. I like having answers. I like know what's going on. I like having a path established to what I need to accomplish.

A little background. I've mentioned that at 24 I had brain surgery. I had bilateral opthalmic artery aneurysms. That means I had an aneurysm on each opthalmic artery. As soon as I heard the news from my doctor, I excused myself from my desk and went and cried in the ladies room. For 5 minutes. Then I wiped my face, and said, "what's next." And I contacted the neurosurgeon and a week and a half later, I had both aneurysms clipped. Part of that response is that my now-ex-husband was a total basket case and I had to comfort HIM. Rediculous, I know. But the other part of the response is that is how I am. I confront a problem head on and look for a way to solve it.

But now, now my careful planning is being fucked with. In the beginning of March I developed a rash. I figured it was just some allergy or something and it went away. It came back in April. And that time it was EVERYWHERE. But it didn't itch or hurt. So I went to my doctor and she ordered some blood work.

I figured it would all be fine and it was a reaction to soap or shampoo or something. I did some research on things it could be, but really assumed it was nothing.

She called a week and a half ago and my ANA which tests for autoimmune antibodies had a slight positive. She was willing to wait 6 months and retest, I am not. So I have an appointment with a Lupus Clinic because I have other symptoms, most noticeably, the wonderful butterfly rash on my cheeks and nose. Then there is the brain numbing exhaustion that I haven't been able to kick.

To say I'm scared would be an understatement. I'm more scared that I'll go to my appointment, they'll do the 50-bazillion tests, and I still won't have answers. I don't like not having answers. I want to know what is going on with my body. Today I nearly had a breakdown because I am so exhausted and I don't know why and it's making me crazy.

Fortunately, I have wonderful, supportive friends and the love and support of KM. KM is being wonderful through this and listening to me go on and on about stuff and my total freak outs about the rash on my back.

With any kind of luck, this type-a gal will have some answers next week. Even if they say, "well, maybe" that is at least an answer of sorts and I can deal with that.

In knitting news, I finished sock #1 for the pair I'm making for myself and I cast on sock #2 during lunch. I am over half done on the baby blanket I'm making for my friend. No new status on the other projects.

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Good friends help you move...

Great friends help you move bodies.

Or at least help you move 1,500 pounds in books, 500 bras, 600 pair of underwear and a LOT of shoes.

I got back from California on Sunday. I helped my friend Jamie move here to the Land of Enchantment. California was pretty, it was overcast on Thursday so my beach pictures should be interesting. I had a good time being with Jamie, we spent a lot of time in the car, which was good to just girl-talk and I got to meet some of her California friends, who were all very nice and welcoming. Her friend Tammy may have the cutest 2 year old, ever. He decided to rename me Nina, we don't know why.

The trip from California to New Mexico was challenging. It took us MUCH longer to load the SUV then we had planned. We were supposed to have a mini-van but ended up with a Jeep Laredo. If we'd had a mini van we wouldn't have had the challenges we had. We finally got everything loaded into the Jeep around 7:30 pm on Friday evening. We were scheduled to leave around noon that day. We had TONS of stuff piled on the top of the car too, 2 canvas car-top carriers, 6 boxes, 2 file boxes and a suitcase. ALL BUNGEE CORDED TO THE TOP. We finally hit the road around 9 pm that night. We were supposed to make it to Williams, Arizona. But around the Arizona state line I told Jamie that I could NOT do another 2 hours and she was having a hard time staying awake too. So we decided to stop in Kingman. Now, it should be noted that when we left Irvine I told Jamie that we couldn't go through drive-thrus or anything because of the stuff on the roof. This is important information. We get off the highway in Kingman and pull into a Motel 6. It's 3 am. I'm REALLY tired because we'd been pulling late nights every night. I completely missed the 6 foot low clearance sign. That's right, I drove the cargo into the motel awning. Then I had to back up. And I ran over a box. I went in to get the room. When I cam back out Jamie told me that one of the car top carriers had torn when it came off the roof. It was still hanging on. Nothing actually came off except one box. I did bungee it really well. So we kind of shoved things back up, grabbed our overnight bag and went to the room. It should be noted that I was nearly hysterical at this point. Jamie was calm. She kept assuring me it was ok. We had no idea what we were going to do. So I made the decision to call KM and have him drive to Kingman to rescue us.

Now KM and I do this silly little thing where we "argue" over who loves who more. He wins. He drove 7 hours to Kingman for me. Hands down, he wins.

So we slept for a bit, got up, called KM and made those arrangements. We knew it would be a while before he could get there so Jamie paid for another night in the hotel. We got the stuff off of the roof and went to get lunch, aloe vera sunburn jell for me and a few other necessities. KM and FKM got there about 12:30 am Jamie and I loaded the stuff from the roof of the jeep into my car and crashed. We got up at 6 and hauled butt back to Albuquerque. After banging on some doors, we were able to get Jamie in to sign her lease and unload the Jeep and return it.

Jamie's container of stuff should arrive on Wednesday and we can unload that. We're both REALLY glad that the ordeal is over.

I got a bad sunburn on Friday while loading up the Jeep. It STILL hurts.

I spent my first Mother's Day on the road, but I did get to see my guys who I missed a whole lot. KM got me a magnetic hematite necklace/bracelet and FKM made me something in school.

I did get to buy 2 skeins of sock yarn at Yarn Lady in California.

OTN: Socks for me, have turned the heel and done gusset decreases on the first sock. Harry Potter scarf for FKM, scarf for Jamie, and a crochet baby blanket for a friend of mine.

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

California Dreamin'

“I'd be safe and warm
If I was in L.A.
California dreamin'
On such a winter's day”

This song by The Mamas and The Papas brings back memories of high school pep band. Go Trojan basketball. Yes, we really were the Trojans, and our rival, the Spartans. Really.

But today, today that song makes me think of beaches and oceans. Tomorrow I fly to California to help my friend Jamie move to Albuquerque. Woohoo!! I’ve never been to California. The furthest west I’ve been is Las Vegas. I fly in on Wednesday and we have to get her moving container packed and ready for the moving company to pick it up. Then on Thursday we are doing a lot of site seeing. I forget what all we’re doing. I remember something about Crystal Cove State Park, and Laguna, and a place called Ruby’s.

We head back to Albuquerque later in the week. We’re planning a stop at the Grand Canyon, too. My mom is a little worried about the two of us loose in California. She knows us well. Jamie and I had always talked about a road trip. Now we’re doing it.

I’m so excited I can hardly stand it. I have my directions printed and my packing list. Camera is ready.

And just so you don’t think this is a completely knit-free post here’s a little update. KM wears his knitted socks every week. He swears he loves them and wants me to make him more. This guy is a keeper. Jamie and I are planning to hit Fiber Lady in Laguna and Unravel in Flagstaff. I’m buying sock yarn so I can make California Dreamin’ socks and Arizona socks. I was telling a friend my plan and she asked why didn’t I just buy some socks. She really doesn’t get it, LOL. I bought myself this cute little purse kind of thing that has a drawstring at the thrift store. The plan is to put sock yarn and the current sock project in it, I can hang the drawstring on my wrist and then I can knit while waiting in line. I’m pretty clever sometimes, I saw them for sale in Knitpicks but was sure I could make it cheaper. Then I found that little bag for a $1. SCORE!

OTN: Socks for me in yarn by Opal, a scarf in blue and tan for Jamie, a Gryffindor scarf for FKM for Solstice this year and also a crochet baby blanket for my friend Amy who is having a baby in July.

And now I leave you with The Mamas and The Papas

California Dreamin’ by The Mamas and The Papas

All the leaves are brown
And the sky is gray
I've been for a walk
On a winter's day

I'd be safe and warm
If I was in L.A.
California dreamin'
On such a winter's day

Stopped into a church
I passed along the way
Oh, I got down on my knees
And I pretend to pray

You know the preacher likes the cold
He knows I'm gonna stay
California dreamin'
On such a winter's day

All the leaves are brown
And the sky is gray
I've been for a walk
On a winter's day

If I didn’t tell her
I could leave today
California dreamin'
On such a winter's day(California dreamin')On such a winter's day(California dreamin')On such a winter's day